
My grandmother was admitted to the hospital last night with a massive stroke and likely will not be coming home. I am heading back in to meet with my family and be around her, we don't know how much time she has left and the suddenness of this has left us all in shock. She was just here, holding Galatea and being her usual adorable self, cracking jokes. It is hard to see her so fragile and nearly impossible to realize we have to say goodbye so soon.
I just wanted to put this here for people to know why I'm not responding to work stuff right now, I will be getting back to things as soon as I can.
Thank you,
J.
I was expecting a lot of my favorite extensions to break, but it hasn't been too bad.
Extensions disabled by upgrade:
* How'd I Get Here (if you find that you opened a tab and want to blog about it, but can't remember where you found it from, this extension gets you the referring page) - can't be implemented in Firefox 3, something about RESULTS_AS_FULL_VISIT not yet implemented in that version.
* Long Titles (displays long image mouseover tooltips - for XKCD, A Softer World etc) - not needed in Firefox 3 -- the bug that was causing the cutting off of long tooltips has been fixed.
* MeasureIt (provides an on-screen ruler to measure the pixel dimensions of things in browser, great for web development) - Not yet available in a Firefox 3-compatible version. Nothing's preventing it, I don't think, it's just a matter of time (or hacking it yourself).
Extensions disabled, but fixed by installing dev versions after googling:
* Tab Mix Plus (provides excellent tab tiling, tab undo-close, and session restores) - this is my single favorite extension, and I was glad that there was a dev build that worked with Firefox 3
* del.icio.us (very useful plug in, if you use that bookmarking site) - similarly, a dev version was available.
Extensions that transferred fine:
* Adblock
* ColorZilla
* DOM Inspector
* Fetch Text URL
* Live HTTP Headers
* JavaScript Debugger
* FireGPG
I haven't noticed any decrease in memory footprint (so far it's about the same as the latest Firefox 2 builds), but it loads and browses much faster, and I like the new UI.
- I have an unfortunate tendency to overrely on plot, actually stomping down on character moments in order to hit the, and I quote, "essential" elements of the plot I'm aiming for. Not good. Must unshackle myself from the need to get to that final sentence where it's supposed to be.
- As competent prose writers, we tend to be so inside our head that we forget to explain what's happening in there to an outsider. The number one thing I heard was, "I'm not sure I get what's happening here...." Be just a little more explicit about the fiddly bits than you think you should be (but then the danger is overwriting, which I may have overcompensated into).
- I am constitutionally incapable of being in the same room with people when they are critiquing my manuscript. Every pen-stroke upon the page is like a little sword-swipe at my heart. I have to leave the room.
- Being around writers who work in entirely different thought processes as they create is amazing. I plot. Others work purely on instinct, getting to the end of the story without a single scrap of planning. Others lay down the symbolism they're trying to hit before they can continue. Others have to walk around, storing up visual imagery to lay down 'pon the page. It's so neat, getting these little windows into other people's heads.
- Kelly Link is a warm, wonderful human being who I adore. That said, when she couldn't remember precisely how old she was, we had to Wikipedia her to tell her. This amuses me to no end.
- Eighteen very good writers all looking at the same manuscript? It's funny how much disagreement can break out about a lot of things, but the core problems with any story have (at least thus far) generally stayed the same.
- Writing six stories in six weeks, when all of your bad habits are being exposed and you're trying very hard to stretch and write new stories? Very, very hard. Some people only write two stories in their entire Clarion time; before, I would have wondered how that could happen. Now, I totally understand that when you're struggling to form new instincts, writing becomes very, very strange and very, very difficult.
- The Clarion experience is intense, but the folks here know what they're doing. We've had a lot of sit-down talks about the publishing industry, but we've also had several sit-down talks about the psychological experience of Clarion and where the wheels tend to come off the cart for people. This week's assignment? Get at least six hours' worth of sleep a night, and skip at least one of the sit-down talks to concentrate on writing. Yes, we know it's exciting and you hate to hear the summary the next day from all your excited friends, but actually applying fingers to keyboard is what will be most useful in the long run.
- One week in Clarion time == three weeks in regular time. Maybe a little more.

And it is:
“Hello! John Scalzi has several very important things he needs to do today before he can come and play with you all, so he told me to tell you that he’ll probably be out for most of the day. He sent me because I’m so adorable that you can’t help but be winsomely amused by whatever I do or say. See how I’m cocking my head? Adorable!
“Anyway, Scalzi says to feel free to talk amongst yourselves and he’ll see you probably later this afternoon. Okay, bye now!
“Oh! And I almost forgot: The reason my head is adorably cocked? I’m looking at that thing you got stuck between your teeth. Really, man. You need to, like, brush or something. Just saying.”
On July 2, Ctrl+Alt+Del posted this--btw, language, so open at your own risk. At the time, they said that it "seemed pretty obvious" (more language), and I had to agree. Well, less than a full week later, here's the proof! Not that Winter 2008 means anything when you consider we're looking at the Japanese edition. But still, this is more hope than we had before! Now I just wonder if they're going to dress it up like Final Fantasy III for the DS....
- What's your 20?:Home for the morning
- I'm feelin':
geeky
- I'm feelin':
thoughtful
Owl - Owl teaches us to turn a disadvantage into an advantage. Owl uses the "disadvantage" of twilight to swoop down on unsuspecting prey. Twlight has been called owl-light. Quiet walks in the woods are an excellent way to develop your other sight and you may feel drawn to explore some sort of clairvoyancy.
as always thought provoking.
- I'm feelin':
mellow
Apparently it’s Monday, and I’m not entirely clear on how that happened. I feel like I’m several days, at least, behind. I woke up at 7:something this morning, thought, “I should get up now,” decided to lie in for a few more minutes, had a rather scattered yet vivid dream involving not so much Dean and Sam as the Impala (which the Good Ol’ Boy in the dream said was a Dodge Impala, wtf, but I was playing the part of a … girl/friend who was trying to replace the Impala (which didn’t actually need replacing, but I was *really* trying to find out some other thing to help solve the mystery that was going on, and so *dumb blonde giggle* well sure Dodge I mean it’s a car what do I know about them except he looooooooooved his car soooooooooo much) and the next time I really looked at the clock it was 9:00. I staggered out of bed a little confused.
Then I nerved myself up for Certain Doom and called Continental Airlines, upon whom I am supposed to be flying to Comic-Con. I’d gotten a notification last week after Dad reserved the ticket saying ‘The ticket hasn’t been issued due to technical problems, you need do nothing’, so I didn’t, and then after a couple of days of nothing I got nervous, and there was a bunch of jumping through hoops, and I emailed to say “um?” and they emailed back eventually and said “call this number”, so this morning I did, basically figuring the fare was going to have quadrupled (or even just doubled, that would’ve been more than problem enough) and that I wasn’t going to get to go.
Instead I talked to a very nice guy who accidentally hung up on me, then to a very nice woman who explained they’d been having technical problems for the last week and she wouldn’t even try transferring me (which was how the first guy hung up on me), she’d just see if she could do all the website stuff herself. And she could, and did, and got me the plane ticket at the original price, and I am now waiting VERY NERVOUSLY for it to arrive in my email box as promised. Within an hour, she said. It’s been about half an hour now. If I don’t have it by noon or one my time I’ll call back and see if I can talk to her again specifically, since she knows what’s up with me.
This is not much like writing a book. Furthermore, my brain is absolutely certain it’s Sunday (possibly Sunday the 29th of June, mind you, but Sunday) and that I really ought to get to have today off. Neither of these things are true.
*stares nervously at email*
ETA: ticket has arrived! I am going to ComicCon! EEEEEEEE!
(x-posted from the essential kit)- I'm feelin':
nervous
As the saying goes, "The one thing I've learned about life is, it goes on."
For the first time, being mindful of the suffering of others doesn't feel like devalidation or some illogical attempt to dwarf your own pain. It just goes to show nothing is as unsual or unnatural as it seems.
- I'm feelin':
sad
Oi.
Friday ended up being movie day. I saw both Hancock and Get Smart. Both of which are worth your time. Hancock got a lot of negative reviews and I can sort of see why it did but I enjoyed it. There is a feeling of disjointedness that gives the feeling that there might be a few scenes too many that were left on the cutting room floor. Still, I appreciated the uses demonstrated for super strength that I hadn't ever thought about before. The explanations for him and his powers didn't bother me at all. Some of these things don't need to make a ton of sense - especially when told from the point of view of someone else inside the narrative. As for Get Smart, it was funnier than I was expecting. Less cheap humor than I was expecting as well. And, well, The Rock is awesome. I've become a big fan of him as an actor.
Saturday was waking up to go to the gym. Let me say, I'm still feeling it today. After that, we (Kris, Holly and I) got into the car and zoooooomed down to Tacoma to join up with Mike, Leigh, David, Sean and Kyna. Then we went to the Tall Ship festival. I'm not sure if it was my mood (which was hit and miss), the day (which was muggy and unpleasant) or the festival. I think probably some of all together but I wasn't really into it. It would be very different if we had arranged to go out on one of the ships. We decided to pass on trudging around more and went to The Old Spaghetti Factory. Yum.
Later that evening I went with Holly to see Wanted, joining us were Sean, Kyna and Steve. What can I say about this movie? Well. It was pretty. And that pretty sustained me through the first act and into the second one. And then, then it just started drifting into absurd, even within its own conventions. There were a few plot points which we were asked to swallow which seemed far too obvious for most anyone to not see where they were going. And then the last third of the movie was violence, gory violence, stupid violence and violence with poor special effects. Angelina, hot cars and a few of the violence moments that retained their awesome look (like the keyboard) were enough to make me be okay with having paid to see it but man... I'm glad to have seen someone enact a train-fu scene.
Today. Today Kris and I rearranged the kitchen and bought a blender. We also bought some Spiru-tein. It isn't bad. Not my favorite thing in the world and my stomach is still a little uncertain what to think of it. It seems to sit a little heavily in my stomach. In milk it tastes sort of like much better Slim-Fast shakes. In Orange Juice it sort of tastes like not as good Orange Julius. And I think I'll have to use the blender just to mix this stuff because otherwise it gets clumpy and meh.
Then we had Sean's Changeling game. Yeah! Wooooo! That game is a lot of fun. I enjoy playing it a lot.
Also, watching Iron Chef there are Kikoman ads that define 'umami' as "Japanese for Delicious" and while that is /technically/ true, it really, really doesn't go far enough. Not at all. It is much more complicated than that.
Instead, I'm talking about my Fourth of July weekend.
Very little writing done, but there was much consuming of malt liquor, microbrews, vegetarian appetizers, burgers, hot sausage, and a fourteen hour, slow smoked pork shoulder. Deeeelicious!
But the best of it truly was the fact that we were visiting friends in Philly and if yer gonna throw down for independence and fireworks, it's the place to be. When the fireworks started, we ran up to our friends roof deck, overlooking old world looking Philly and I got a little misty. That may have been the rain or (plug) the fact that I did a lot of reading on Ben Franklin recently for The Fourteenth Virtue in The Dimension Next Door on-sale now (/end plug). Either way, it was a good time and left me wondering if I could pull off that historical urban fantasy novel I've been jonesing to do...
In other news, don't forget to start DVRing I LOVE MONEY on VH-1. I loves me a good trainwreck.
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Another thing for the "When I am famous" shopping list...
- I'm feelin':
devious
GRA-WITH-AN-ACCENT: "No, I don't either."
E.J.: "Spongebob Squarepants is fucking terrible."
ME: "Oh, thank God. Every time I bring it up, somebody always tries to defend it."
E.J.: "Well, you're with the writers now."
x-posted to nonwiccanpagans and nonwiccanwitch
- What's your 20?:my living room
- I'm feelin':
curious, always - Lalala, I can't hear you! I hear:13th Warrior on TV.
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It was offered tonight that I am the happiest I've ever been. I suspect this is true. Which is odd, because there is still much in my life that is not what might be considered perfect... but I'm okay with the lack of perfection. I'm happy. I laugh a lot, and sigh very little.*
This, no doubt, means that my writing productivity is going to take a hit**. Damn. But the novels will still be written, because they too make me happy.
Hey,
*except when I consider politics, and the general state of the world. But I persevere, and fight for what I consider Right (which is generally but not always facing Left, yes)
**that whole "creative types must be miserable to create Art?" Has a grain of truth in it. But only a grain, thank the Universe. We must also be content within our own skins, to a certain extent. You can't create if you don't know who you are, first.
- I'm feelin':
sleepy
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So my birthday is in about 6 weeks now — and this is all I want.
$100 to spend at Michael’s Arts & Crafts
$100 to spend at a used bookstore
$100 to spend at the local bead stores
an lcd monitor
After all, I got a job now. :)
- I'm feelin':
peaceful
- I'm feelin':
cheerful - Lalala, I can't hear you! I hear:Massive Attack - Inertia Creeps
In the meantime, I present you three of the new entries that came in, which all reside over in my Facebook account with the others if you want to see them all.
( Read more... )
Now get out there and get snapping!
As noted, a longer write-up on InConJunction is coming up later, but for now, dig on this:

A sketch of yours truly from Howard Tayler, of Schlock Mercenary fame, who was also a Guest of Honor at the convention this weekend. I especially love that he drew me with hair.
Everyone who looked upon it said “dude, that would make an excellent LiveJournal icon.” I agree, although for clarity, one needs to fiddle with the word bubble:

Expect this to start showing up on my LiveJournal comments soon.
In any event, very cool of Howard to do the sketch. Give him link love and go visit his site, please, if in fact you do not visit it already.
- I'm feelin':
amused
- I'm feelin':
amused
I had to call the people running the camp and beg and plead her case because we were running so late. I hope a week or two away from her mom will give her a chance to see the world in a different light. I really need to start either pulling back from the disaster that is this family, or find a way to get the kids to cut themselves free.
Just had a long talk with a friend about the entire situation. It's sad but the two of us think that the kids are being coached to lie to social workers and even me. That they are working to pull my strings, convincing me to do the vast majority of daily child care, so the mother can just spend the money she gets from the state on herself.
I'm tired, even though Wake is pitching and it's Sunday night against the Yankees, I am going to call it a night.
I finally uploaded them.
Now I just have to figure out what the hell is going on with my home page links...
Here they are: Wicked Faire 08
Enjoy!
- I'm feelin':
awake
- I'm feelin':
celebratory
Which I do (do I ever!) about I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone by Stephanie Kuehnert (
( Click to read review--you know you wanna. )
As I mentioned before, this is definitely a book that would appeal to adults and older teens alike. Some parents might object to the sexual situations and drug use, but they're handled with honesty and frankness--meaning they're neither demonized nor romanticized (believe me, no girl is going to want to run out and get laid after reading about Emily's first encounter). I can't even express how refreshing that is, and it's one of the many reasons I loved this book.
So join me Monday to learn more about Stephanie Kuehnert and I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone, and enter to win your very own copy of this phenomenal new book!
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Now playing: The Gits - Snivelling Little Rat Faced Git
via FoxyTunes
- I'm feelin':
enthralled
(I have a few already in the hopper, but I'd like at least ten to make the list worthwhile.)
So. Here's where you ante up. Ask away. (and no, you don't need an LJ account to post!)
(after a certain point this post will be pre-dated so it always appears right under the Inevitably Incomplete Bibliography)
- I'm feelin':
qu'est-ce que?
That ghost is, of course, my loving wife Gini.
She's as much a part of this blog as I myself am, and being separated for six weeks is an insult. The strange thing is that I don't miss her much during the day; fuck, Clarion is some of the hardest work I've done, getting up at 5:30 in the morning and dozing off at 2:00 a.m., processing endless critiques as we try to squeeze new writing out of our overloaded brainstems. It's incredible.
But it fucks me up that I have this thin twin bed in my room. It's too small for two people. It's as if the bed itself is saying, "No chance she'll be here when you get back, chumley." And while I've had lots of days where I've been way too harried to catch up with Gini during the day, but at night? We've always snuggled up under the covers, bathing in each other's warmth, burying our noses in each other's necks and scenting each other. And then we share the day's events, condensing down what happened into funny anecdotes and getting into strange tickle fights.
So to get back at the end of the day to find bare sheets and no Gini? Fucked. Up.
It's weird, because everyone here knows that she's half my life. They ask when she'll be getting here (she isn't), and whether I've talked to her today, and I keep sharing stuff back and forth. And talking on the phone isn't the same. And it's like a loss, because thanks to the time differential and the lateness, I can't call her before I drift off.
So I spend wonderful days, followed by awful, drifting nights where I write emails to her (and the other people I love). I feel starved of all physical contact; I get the occasional hug here, but not snuggling for eight hours a night makes me feel brittle and disjointed.
Gini sends me birthday gifts, baskets full of chocolate and balloons. We talk. We text. It's not enough.
She's almost here. So close. I just want to hold her, and feel that buttery-smooth skin underneath my hands, and the residual warmth trapped under her T-shirt, and I can't.
Five more weeks.

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